How I had to Unlearn Most of the Lessons from School


School has had some mixed results and have left a funny taste in my mouth.  The more I think about it, the more I think the whle system is fucked up.  I will get to that in a minute.  Here’s my top reasons why much of what we learned in grade school and especially college is full of shit.

1.) Conformity

School doesn’t really teach you how to think independently; in fact, school mainly has you memorize a bunch of shit.  However, a lot of that shit turns out to be false such as Columbus being some hero  or not making light that some of our country’s forefathers were slave owners (or even that capitalism is some positive thing just like democracy).  School doesn’t really teach you to think much or at all; school exists so most people can learn a trade to make money while the school makes money off of them and big corporations can use their skills to make even more money off of them and feeding them meager crumbs.  Thinking for ourselves, questioning social  conventions and norms, or even self-realization are not emphasized in our academic institutions: just grades, jobs, money, and pressure to booze and have promiscuous sex.

2.)  Creativity

School kills the thirst for knowledge and kills creativity.  School makes learning mandatory, graded and quantified, and simply boring and unwanted.  School may encourage creativity in texts or for you to value the importance of others’ creativity (ie- Jim Hanson, Tupac) but not truly develop your own.  Meanwhile, if you’re trying to find yourself and be a quality person then you’ll be drowned out by drunk, horny people that burn couches over basketball games.  In college, the last remnant of your youth, innocence and creativity gets stamped out to prepare you for the workforce and/or the elusive “real world.”  The real world sucks, you know why? Because it is being perpetuated by jerks who went to college and find no real need to change it, but to harden to its tone and exploit others for their own selfish existence. Also, when they do so, the blind, ignorant working class look up to them as heroes.

School is messed up and i Need to write more about this topic soon.  Have a nice day.

3.)  Curosity

Not only does school kill our curosity, it provides us with an illusion that upon graduating that we are these skilled scholars whereas in reality we simply become better educated, compliant sheep and consumers of technology and pop culture that hope to one day accidentally strike it rich

nch of shi


Going Home


I met some wonderful people in Arkansas Welcoming Center on  my way home today.  They gave free hot coffee/chocolate and donuts.  Such a wonderful way to start the day!  This guy named Doug was large and tall and hardy, and gave me a warm greeting.  Him, his wife, and Richard/”Duffy” were so nice to me.  We talked about life, God, and about writing.  Duffy shared a piece of his writing about Christianity and God and applauded it.  I think all good writing from the heart is effective/great writing.

This trip has been such a blessing.  I purged demons, received inspiration, found new career paths, and regained a good health and life path.

Peace and Love!  😀

Minimalism: A Change


So after about 17 years of being an adult, I can say I have been and still am very disorganized.  That is 17 years of having tried to be this super disciplined Kung Fu master who wakes up at 6am every day and trains and falls asleep in a meditation pose in this empty shack by the mountains.  Instead, I’ve been this borderline hoarder, cluttered mess whose lifestyle is the equivalent to the image of a person opening up a closet and a mountain of trash over taking them and toppling over them.

I am now 4 weeks into a minimalism program that I bought for $3 (only 16 pages long!) online from Amazon on my free Kindle App on my computer:

Great book, I totally recommend it; it has changed my life

Also, I just bought this book today for 99 cents and I’ll review it soon enough!  A few things I’ve learned from minimalism:

–  It’s not about taking everything away; just reducing to the basic and essential.

–  It’s more freeing than restricting; although not at first.

–  I’m stunned how fast things accumulate in my physical surroundings and my brain.    Getting rid of stuff does not take a gargantuan effort, but slow and steady effort.

-How attached I am to simple things like that piece of string in my car that is trash, that cut I got from a restrauant that is empty, or some random box or receipt that i don’t need.  Letting go is certainly a skill (this includes text messages and emails in my inbox).

I’m now working on this book for 99 cents and is supposedly a best seller.  With that, minimize!   bon voyage!  :



So it’s been 2.5 months staying out here in the West Coast… more or less since I had left my home in Silver Spring, MD (formerly Takoma Park, MD) on August 15th, 2014.  Previous to that, I was coasting for some years in some  decent jobs (I wouldn’t call them careers, but they were good preemptive jobs leading to my ultimate career.  Also, about 13 years ago I had intended on dropping out of school (which I did eventulaly, and took a year off and graduated shortly after) and walk to California.  That plan was squashed eventually, but then I felt for the longest time after that proposed trip – graduating college, working, and having some success in competitive martial arts and coaching – that I was living an illusion or someone else’s life.

Life was all about showing up to some job on time, balancing leisure time with friends and my own pursuit, and worrying about the ever impending “future” (which never really exists) with savings, mortgage, retirement, family, career, and all that crap.  Basically, a bunch of shit I don’t care about.   I was moving forward with my well-dressed, young profesional facade en  route to some improved career standings and living conditions and earning more, saving more, and working towards being able to settle down with another person, blah blah blah.

I’m a spiritual person, so none of that pre-paved bullshit means anything.  Then someone bumped me from the rear, probably a texter, and I had some other shit happen in my life.  That urged me to pursue my dream as a writer and helped inspire a whole florid variety of interests including sociology/social justice, self-help and fiction writing, and being a disciple of the Medicine Buddha.  In essence, I hit the road and embraced the real and felt inspiration and dreams pumping through my system.

This trip wasn’t without its hitches including running over a rock in the middle of a mountain, almost running out of gas in the mountains twice (always got to a gas station within my last 5 miles or so.  Also, lived through a few desperate times including living out of my car, endless confrontations with the police, almost getting towed twice (when sleeping in some posh parking lots), and setting up tents in the pitch black with wind and/or rain splashing on me.

All the things I listed above were not negative things, but the makings of an adventure.  My definition of an adventure is going on a trip that at first seems exciting, but then at some point during it you want go home.  That your bounds and limitations were so stretched that you couldn’t help but grow, struggle, become desperate, and laugh about it afterward!  It’s crucial to life to keep growing!

I have met some beautiful people, renewed my interest in martial arts and meditation, and have found a new lifestyle and lifeview that I can view with that paves my lilfe and future with clarity the way I want it.  That’s the end  and be all; that’s all she wrote.

I hope everyone can go on an adventure, especially cross country road trip (all you need is about $1000 or less and a car with gas).that helps them transform and change on the inside.

God Bless!  🙂

Operation Burnout


Of course, things are going well overall: I took a trip, minimal bad things have happened, I saw beautiful scenery, I have a new perspective on my life, I actually have more money coming in from different sources etc.  Also, as my laptop screen broke last Thursday, I used that as an opportunity to drive from Castroville to LA to visit some friends.  It was a great weekend and full of food and friends.  I drove to San Jose and Oakland after that to visit friends and pick up a laptop that my friend Zhibo donated to me.  I also rescued my hard drive so I should have all the files backed up, and also I’ve used for $5/month to eletronically back up all my files.

On the other hand, I am feeling some serious burn out.  I have a few more resumes and cover letters to finish in this cycle, but perhaps an accumulation of things are weighing on me:

– I’ve applied to close to 70 jobs since I’ve left Maryland on August 15th, 2014.  I’ve officially earned job online revising a guy’s resume.

–  Ever since landing in California, I’ve decided to live out of my car to save money.  Although I’ve only recently started sleeping horizontally in my backseat, which have afforded me more restful evenings, it’s past the point of being fun.  I can’t truly complain because I’m living hte dream, but I do feel physically and emotionally exhausted for several reasons related to this living accommodation (ie – dealing with or paranoia regarding the police, sleeping in weird positions, the cold California nights [bone chilling!] )

–  Increased time meditating: this technically should be a good thing, but meditaiton is a cleanser of the mind, body, and soul.  Also, sometimes the cleansing process is not fun and can be straight up brutal.  I guess that’s part of the process of spiritual development.  The human condition is full of sin, regrets, and negative emotions (in addition to the positive attributes), and there is no greater time you feel it than when you’re deep in meditation or crisis.

–  I am new to resume writing and there always seems like there is something new to learn, and due that factor the new launch of this side career is quite exhausting.

–  I’ve recently started reading and practicing Minimalism: this is a big step for someone who’s been very disorganized and had ADHD for all of his adult life and even part of his teenage life.  In fact, I had two panic attacks and borderline nervous breakdowns the first two days I started the program because it was so contradictory to everything I’ve done in the past 17 years.  I decided to continue with the journey and have found out how easy it is to accumulate physical and mental bagge and also how much consistent discipline is required to keep life at a minimal.  I’ve actually cleaned up and threw away a lot of stuff in my car since and have provided a decently organized environment for myself and have a good program for organizing my personal life for the first time in my adult life.

–  The desperation of the job hunt is quite a energy draining effort.  I refused to accept failure and pushed through difficulties.  In many ways, I was successful, but I am freakin’ tired.  Like tired and burnt to the core and I am several days late in delivering this cover letter due to the computer issue.

–  I’ve been recommended to visit Washington State, and I plan on leaving today.  Of course, I left that detail out when interacting with my dear parents who will probably read this on their plane to China.  I’ve read some details online and realize:  it’s some 900 miles away.  I hope I come out of it alive!  lol

I think the major thing is a combination of major life and paradigm shifts combining with some different and alternative living conditions.

In the long run, I’ll be fine, but right now I’m burning with the heat of passion, desperation, change, and basically a revolution of the mind.

In other news, I am making progress in my martial arts, and despite the common assumption that martial arts coaches or practitioners are somehow immune to pain, emotions, or change, I have to say I am still hamming it out in life despite the recent progress and personal revolutions.  No one, including martial artists, are immune to pain, flaws, or opportunities for growth (esp. outside of the realm of martial arts), but the it the fragility of the facade and the ego which displays to people what certain martial artists want to present or how they would like to be perceived at the risk of appearing vulnerable, not invincible, or just a human being.  However, I have to say martial arts is a great damn road map and guide to life and I recommend it for anyone who wants self-improvement, fitness and health, and guiding principles  which continue our development as human beings.  I guess, these ideas will help to improve myself as a coach when I return to Maryland.  Without the martial arts, I would have given up on this journey long ago.

That’s it for now.  I have faith in the process.  Also, I believe in guardian angels, but more on that later.

Have a great day!

The Silent Backer


So someone has been secretly putting money in my account without my knowledge and without revealing themselves.  Seriously, I’ve been the recipient of approximately $400-500 in the past 3 weeks without knowing who!  I mean, I’ve borrowed some money from family members and friends recently to tie me over, not so much that it would seriously burden people and I certainly don’t continually ask people for funds like a leech.  I try to be self-reliant, generous when possible, and not a burden on people.

So how did $200 show up in my account 2 days ago?  Only heaven knows, and one or two people/beings/deities.  I don’t know how, but I am seriously thankful.

Most importantly, I’d wish the money would fill in my account from my blood, sweat, and tears rather than someone or something’s generosity, but I am forever grateful.

I am also surprised how frugal I have been in the past 3.5 weeks and was expecting my account to be a lot lower in spite of the donations and because of the tickets I have had to deal with.

I will forever remember this generosity and will be sure to pass it on to others the first chance I get.  I have had thoughts of starting a publishing house someday as I am learning the in’s and out’s of the writing, editing, and publishing experience.  In fact, I downloaded a free eBook from recently and just finihsed reading it.  Ugh, I just saw that misspelled word, but I am too tired ot fix it and that too!  😀

There is another website that is mentioned in the book: Preditors and Editors.  It’s a website identifying cheating, scamming, and indecent publishers.  The eBook also touches on a lot of Writer Communities… it’s some thing I might look into , but I also might do it alone as I feel until I interact with proofreaders, the writing process is a pretty solitary (not lonely – as you ccan be in a room full of people and feel lonely – I’m with myslef and being good opmany with myself as opposed to missing and wishing about people – in fact, I remember reading a quote attributed to Oscar Wilde in a book but could could never find the quote on the internet: “Solitude is a wonderful thing when one is at peace with one self and there is a definite task at hand.”  I cannot find it, but I am at peace with myself 8-9 moments out of 10, and am happy about 9 moments out of 10, sometimes 9.5 times, and thus one of the books I hope to publish is a book about the science of being happy and provides a framework for people to achieve it – that was a long aside) act, and requires a lot of reflection, artistic work, and a decent routine to keep the pages churning.

Anyway, love, peace, and all that jazz for everyone!

Have a great weekend.

For all the martial arts fans, I totally recommend the blog :   wonderful recounts of famous masters and events.

I am amidst of working on a blog post about how martial arts has saved my life.  Perhaps it’s almost a book idea, but for now I’ll stick to a long multi-part blog post about how martial arts has saved my life and taught me life altering and saving  and imrpoving lessons.  Yes, another misspelled word.  😦

Science, Art, Living, & Happiness


Well, I’ve been thinking now as I am in between revising a tutoree’s paper and job hunting.  I have a few minutes to jot down a few thoughts.  I realize that what I am aiming for most besides a newfound career and mastery of an art (martial arts) that I am practicing, and besides the aim for happiness (which I am achieving), I am also aiming to find or acquire the Art of Living.  Everyone has a guide and everyone has a path/road map to navigate in this world, but only a few people can really steer their boat effectively in the turbulent tides of life and remain balanced or even prevail in its tumultuous, unpredictable crash of waves and whirlpools.

So what of it?   I realize on what hand, as I am writing a book about happiness and some framework on how to achieve it (I feel it is part art, but there is a great part of science to it combined with effort), there are parts of the Art of Living I am still learning to improve in.  This could include cognitive roadblocks, such as being too hard on myself and trying to master an aspect of life too soon, as well as scheduling and organizing roadblocks, such as run-on sentences, sleep and wake up schedules, maintaining consistent energy levels through out the days and weeks, and fitting in my professional and spiritual/writing/martial arts responsibilities.  Surely, the Art of Living is a lifelong pursuit, but I feel having achieved a level of happiness has helped me along; so is the Science of Happiness a part of the Art of Living or the other way around… is the square a rectangle a square or a square is a rectangle…I feel I am taking crazy pills, he’s got nothing, NOTHING!  (~Mugatu, Zoolander).

Also, please contact me if you are interested in reading my draft of a book explains a framework necessary for happiness – either as a fan or as a critic/editor/proofreader.  Thanks!  You can email me at or contact me in which medium we are already in touch with.

I also want to thank my Uncle Steve for talking with me and discussing public transit, social inequality, and ways that we can correct institutional inequalities over the weekend.  He has worked for 42 years for Minneapolis’ public transit system including planning and creating bus routes.  He also feels an ideal city is one in which the usage of a car is not needed much or even obsolete.  He is not a big fan of the “big, metal boxes” that we separate ourselves in.  Also, the emission difference between public transit and the use of cars are dramatically different as well as the usage of space.

I suddenly have a deep yearning for A & J’s Taiwanese hot soy milk in Rockville, MD along with the deep fried dough.  I recommend it to everyone; it’s on 355 Rockville Pike.  Yum, yum, yum.  Here I am in California which has the coldest evenings in the world; I was awakened around 5am because the temperature and quality of coldness was so biting.  I feel the coldness soak into my bones no matter what I wrap myself in, and even when I drive and blast the heat in my car, as soon as I turn the car off then the inside of the car becomes cold within 45 seconds.  This type of “heat suck” is more intense than Maryland and Minnesota winters; at least in those temperatures, when you are able to raise the temperature in a place, shelter, or vehicle, the surrounding climate or environment does not suck it all away in seconds.  Very strange.

It is the yin to California’s “positive” yang.  Yep yep.  I still find this place to be inspiring, loving, and friendly.

I do miss aspects of Maryland though; my trip is halfway through already and I need to start making plans and accommodations with how I am going to spend my winter and read of my residence in Maryland.

Have a great day!  I am thankful each day that I am able to try and pursue my dream; it means more to me than almost anything in the world now.  Even the not-so-good days are bearable because of this fact.  Take care.